Easy Peasy!

Just a quick note in between assignments! My Uphill Battle??

 

Ya, so it might have been me all along!

 

After my last post we re-established her new (old) bedtime routine.

 

Bath

Brush teeth

Story (3 to be exact)

Pray

Bed

 

Except, now she is climbing into a "big girl bed"

 

For four long----very long----weeks I fought Bostyn, but always gave in rather quickly. I gave her the option of going to bed and didn't ever follow through and put my foot down.

 

The first night I did, she kind of looked at me with a face that said "You're kidding me right?"

 

Nope..sorry Missy!

 

Her little booty went to bed that night and its been there every night since.

 

It was rough the first and second night, but not nearly as bad as I had expected.

 

We have had a couple hiccups with some not so nice teeth coming in but other than that she is doing great.

 

 

 

I did really miss her the first few nights she was back in her bed. I enjoyed her sleeping with us, but it is not something that works for us on a nightly basis. I have several friends that co-sleep with their children and it works for them. At least I can say that we tried to co-sleep. =)

An. Uphill. Battle.

Life in our home has changed... a whole lot to say the very least.

What could be this huge change you ask?!?!?  As simple as it is... Bostyn has climbed out of her crib and has turned our life upside down..

 

 okay maybe not upside down but we are definitely on uncharted territory right now.

 

Bostyn has been my golden child when it comes to sleep. She loves and needs her sleep (just like her momma). Since she has been about 4 months we have been able to put her to bed awake, walk out and she was out for the night. Of course we had little hiccups when she would be teething or sick, but she always slipped right back into routine.

 

Fast forward two years later and we have no idea where to start.

 

Problem 1.

 

Dad: Matt is such a sucker for Bostyn's alligator tears. So after just a few attempts of putting her back to bed he says, "Lets just bring her to bed"

 

After a week or so of this, I told him we needed to get a plan together and get on the same page if this was going to work. His reply "I just don't get the time with her that you do, and I love the extra cuddle time with her"..........................

 

What do I say to this? I am home with her almost all day, and he works a lot.

 

huuufff....

 

Problem 2.

 

Mom: I have not put on my big girl pants. I need to put my foot down and get this girl back to her better sleep habits. Because we play this game with her of the back and forth back and forth she goes to sleep pretty late and wakes up pretty early.. leaving me with two year old crankster... not a good combo!

 

 Currently we all lay in bed together until she falls asleep, this can take 30 min - 2 hrs. Not fun! and then we move her to her bed.

 

Oh and nap time.... unless she is at daycare, forget it.

 

Don't get me wrong... I love the extra cuddles as well.. but when B goes down, that's my study time. I do most of my homework after she is in bed and after lying in bed for two hours to get her to fall asleep, that is just not happening.

 

WISH US LUCK!!!!

 

*We will be attempting "supper nany" (as Amy S. calls it) mode starting monday.  Update to follow.

L.O.V.E.

January 31, 2009 a day that will always be a #1 in my heart. The day Matthew and I said I DO!

 

I Do Love you

I Do Cherish you

I Do Honor you

I DO Trust you

I Do Care for you

I Do want to spend my life with you...

 

Since then we have added so much more to our "I Do" list.

 

I Do want to share a family with you

I Do want to create a home with you

I Do support you

I Do want to listen

I Do want to talk

I Do want to scream

I Do want to compromise!

 

And I know we will continue to add more and more to our " I Do" list.

 

This year we wanted to celebrate our anniversary by staying at the Queen Mary. Doing dinner, and just enjoying each other's company. Well this beautiful plan fell short when our bank account did.

 

We decided we would just put that idea on hold for now.  With our new income and our new budget we have to watch the way we spend money now, something that has taking a little bit of adjusting, but we are managing.

 

On the day of our anniversary I filled our home with little love notes that Matt would find while on his way to the coffee pot.  That's it... as simple as that.

 

Matt loved his notes and apologized a million times that our plans didn't work out. I reminded him that it was my idea to cancel and that it was perfectly OKAY.

 

Throughout the day we sent several love text, with simple reminders of our love journey

 

That evening Matt returned home after work to a spotless home and dinner ready and waiting.

 

We exchanged cards...I cried.

 

Not because it was our anniversary, or that we were "simply" celebrating, but because our cards shared the same exact theme.

 

Basically,

 

We are happy and in love and would not want to be anywhere but right here, right now with each other.

 

I love Matthew, and I know he loves me.  We share a unique love for life, and for our marriage!

 

We are incredibly goofy on a daily basis, we have at the very least 100 inside jokes, that no one on this planet would understand.  We KISS, We Cuddle, We laugh at each other,  We hold hands, and most importantly we still FLIRT with one another... which usually leads to an outburst of laughter.

We enjoy each others company and when things get tough, we talk. we don't always get along, and we don't always agree with one another, but we ALWAYS respect one another.

 

I hope we NEVER lose this!

 

 

 

 

Incredibly TWO

We celebrated Bostyn's birthday at Johns Incredible Pizza.  Why John's you ask? Well.... as lazy as this sounds, I didn't want to prep, clean and organize a party. And I really didn't want to clean up AFTER the party. 

 

When we decided on John's for B's birthday, I was still working two jobs and my school schedule was to the max, so it seemed like the most sensible thing to do.

 

Bostyn loved every second of it and so did her buddies. And Matt and I were able to sit back and enjoy too. Her are a zillion pictures from her special day.  Thank you to everyone who made it!

 

These are not in any particular order. Just a jumble of a good time.

 

 

2 - TWO - II - 2ND

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSTYN LYNNE!!!!



Day 1


O.N.E.


T.W.O.

I can not believe this miracle is TWO today. But in the very same thought I cannot believe she is ONLY two.  It feels like she has been apart of us FOREVER!

 

We woke her up extra early this morning to make sure daddy could partake in singing her happy birthday.

 

 

What two year old doesn't want a chocolate cupcake at 6AM?

 

We will celebrate with our friends and family on Sunday at John's Incredible Pizza, she is going to have a blast!

 



 

The wrap-up

...or un-wrap, whatever you want to call it.

 

Matt-

 

Work, woRK, Work.... Promotion WORK. Yes this man is still a crazy work-a-holic. But who isn't these day.  With his promotion we made some changes.

(Ill get there)

 

Bostyn and Matt are inseparable these days.  Most times when I go to get her out of her crib, she greets me with "Whare Dayyi go?" and if I don't respond within the second of her very last word she forgets me completely and starts yelling for him.

 

 "Dayyi, I wake" "Dayyi I wake"

 

 It is a crack-up. Most times he is at work, and I can explain that to her. And for the remainder of the morning I get to hear long stories

 

"dayyi iy at ork mommy"

"Dayyi cowd an ware hees jachet"

"Mommy, Dayyi outsiyde at ork"

 

I love it.  He says she gets the same stories when I am at school. 

 Somehow I think I hear better ones.

 

Bostyn-

 

Growing crazy fast. She amazes me with how smart she is. 

I must admit, I am bias, but she is really smart.

 

As of today (almost 2) she can:

 

Count to 13 without prompting;

 

She can count using her fingers to 6 ( So if I say show me four, she can count out four fingers, and so on up to six);

 

She sings the ABC song, but prefers to say the A. B. C.'s When she says them she misses and repeats lots of letters, but she sounds so darn cute doing it;

 

She knows about 10-12 different colors;

 

Most of her shapes;

 

And she is still adding vocabulary to her sign language bag.

 

She can respond to several directions in one sentence. ( i.e. "Go put your shoes away, bring me a diaper and turn off the light") She will do it in that exact order too.

 

I love talking to her, I feel like we can carry on a pretty decent conversation for her being two.

 

She is crazy independent, she wants ZERO help from anyone, and if you try to help her she says "No mommy, I do ay-self"

 

We have attempted potty training, and it was going well for a several days, then HORRIBLE happened. We were in a public restroom (luckily a flushing toilet has never bothered her) and right as she pulled her pants down and we positioned her on the toilet, a tiny little bug came crawling fast towards her. I killed it and tried to distract her.... to say the least she has not gone pee-pee in the potty since. And I mean I cant blame her. Now when I say "Bostyn, do you want to wear big girl panties" she gets a distraught look on her face and says "NO mommy, no big gil annies" OKAY! she wins. I am not going to force her.

 

Bostyn is wild about Disneyland.  The second we get off the fwy she yells "ay-mos thare" and with the first turn in the parking structure she starts naming all the characters she wants to see. " I see Awiel, an Bewwe, and igger, and oooh, and, and, and," ...... the list goes on and on.  We love it!

 

Her first year of life she was always sick and it seemed like one thing after another.  Except for a few months during the spring (2012) she has been pretty healthy, and that makes for a happy momma.

 

I'm sure this list can go on and on, but I'm sure you get the gist, she is growing and developing into  a mini human just fine.

 

Me-

 

Well besides the fact that this last year feels like I have been in fast forward, I am great.

 

I say fast forward because with work and school and home life, I felt so busy that the year just flew by. That's okay though,  all this crazy, busy hectic schedule will be well worth it.

 

We made a family decision that I would leave my full time position to focus on school and get my B.A. behind me. It was becoming a bit much, and Matt could see this, so with his promotion he proposed that I stay home.

 

I have never, ever, ever been dependant on anyone, so the thought sounded good, but I felt I was giving up a part of me, (crazy right, most moms would die for this opportunity) a part of me that loves contributing to our household.

 So I stared throwing around the idea of a part time job.  Matt was a-okay with this and the search began, BUT, it had to be a position in education. That way I could gain some classroom experience I started to apply for aide positions and I would get calls back, I would pass testing, and then the other guy with experience would get the job. This was discouraging, but I prayed about it and knew something would come up.

 

 A few months later a preschool position became available with the RUSD. I applied, tested, interviewed and the Director of Early Childhood Education took a chance with me!

 THANK YOU!

 

So now I work three hours a day, yes you are reading that right, three hours in a preschool classroom. I love the students and knew the very first day, that I had made the right decision. It is perfect all the way around.

 

Now I have the best of all worlds. I get to be home with Bostyn most of the day, I can focus on school, and I am bringing in a little dough to help with our expenses.  ......and I am gaining classroom experience.

 

There you have it... in a nutshell whats been going on with the Metoyer fam.  Now that I have this newly found freedom, I plan on hitting the keyboard more.  The Blog diologe in my head has already returned. I enjoy blogging. I printed out previous blogs to put in Bostyn's baby book and I love it. 

 

I attempted to upload some pictures.... but its not working.  Give me a sec.. ill get into the swing of things.

 

Cheers!

 

 

 

 

BLESSED by being Br-ok-en...

Take a minute to listen!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DP4Kl0Cfywc

Tears immediately started to  flow out of my freshly made up eyes hearing this song this morning.

Eight years ago today my mom went home! Does it still hurt? YES! Is it any easier? NO

These are two questions I will always ask myself. 

When will it stop hurting? and
when will it get easier?

The answer is, that for me the hurt is still there and the fact that she is not here is not any easier on me.

I often times get asked, "how do you do it?"  Or people say "I could not imagine losing my mother." or my favorite which is "you're so strong!"

Well the truth is, I am not strong all by myself. It is God who is strong for me.  He has been my strength though everything. God has blessed me in so many ways with the strength to move forward.  Not only is it his plan, but I KNOW it is what my mom would have wanted.


I still crumble from time to time. What people don't see is the crippling cry spells that hurt so much I can only lay crouched around a pillow. The days where I don't want to move and wish I could use my DVR remote to rewind time, just to see her beautiful smile in real time.

My only option when this happens is to get on my knees and pray! And guess what, just as he promised, Jesus always gets me through. Thank you Jesus!

I have amazing people in my life. For starters, my amazing husband. Oh my Matthew, I don't know where id be today with out your understanding and support. I have AMAZING friends, which many have proved to be more family than friends! Each and everyone of my friends has been there for me at some time or another, even if they don't realize it. And of course I have an amazing family. My brother is such an inspiration in my life and we have truly leaned on each other for support. Many of you have met my grandparents, What is not to love right? 

So today, eight years later, I would say I am blessed. But it took me being broken to get to this point. A point where I have no choice but to be strong and continue on. It hurts still, but today I chose to celebrate my mom today, celebrate the great person she was. We may not always understand God's plan in our lives, or our loved ones lives, but just trust in him. Not just a little bit but with your whole heart. Let him prove to you that he is the answer.

The above song sums it up completely with every last lyric! =)

Mom,

I miss you more than I could put into words. I want to hug you and laugh with you and of course dance with you! I know you are dancing away in Heaven, and I can say now, that I would not have it any other way. In Heaven, I know you are happy, you are free from pain, you are healthy and your heart is ready and eager to provide the every last beat to get you through what ever you desire. I feel so lucky to have been blessed with Bostyn, I get to see you in her everyday (even in her quirky dance moves) she is full of a rambunctious spirit that I can only tribute to you. My heart aches to know that she will not know you like I do, but I know you are with her..  She says hi to you every time she sees a picture of you (everyday), she knows you are watching her from heaven.  "Bostyn, where is Grandma?" "In heben, momma" is her response and my heart flutters with joy. I love you mom! Thank you for raising me to know the Lord and to be a fighter! The best part is that one day we will be together again, and we will be dancing side by side.

Loving you forever,
Desiree


Life is hard, and everyone has their own story.  I know that the the hurt I feel may or may not  be comparable to what others may be going through. But  this is only my story, everyone deals with grief differently.

Sorry to return to blogging with such a serious thought. But it was on my heart so I hit the keyboard.  I promise the next one will be full of updates and pictures. =)